Mistake

The River was dangerously restless. Evan was looking at the waves mesmerised by their power. He thought how crazy and brave a person must be to canoe in such weather. Evan had tried canoeing once and he had felt so alive. No he kept this call deep inside his soul. Then suddenly he noticed a car in the churning water. For a moment he looked in disbelief and then he reached for his phone to call for emergency. After the call he felt a bit like a hero but then as car passed by him he acknowledged that there was no car in the water. It was just a reflection on the glass of the bus stop. 

Zukini

The garden had gone bananas. Every single bush, plant or tree had decide to grant the best possible harvest this year. She stood helpless in front of the pile of yet another portion of zukinies. She had some twenty already at home despite the fact that she kept offering them to all her relatives and friends. She could no longer imagine a recipe that she could enjoy them. Moreover, she was also not ready to make any winter salad with them. In fact she was not sure that she would ever enjoy a single bite of zukini again. 

Exam

The brain was empty. Not foggy, tired or caught in dilemma, but just empty. No reasonable thought strings, no desires and no dreams. She kept looking at the white sheet in front of her and couldn't write a word. Fear and desperation had wiped her brain clean. 

Duties

Some People do not know what they want and thus they just live in the Cage of the expectations of the society. They take other's ideas for their own. They believe that they like free relationships even when they truely want real love. They believe that they want children even when they really know that they do not have the patience to have one. They believe that they love meaning less Sex even when they want real connection. The lies we face each Day are Hidden under social responsibilities and duties. 

jokes

Sometimes things are so grim that all you can do is laugh and throw black jokes around. Those jokes require specific company otherwise you will be considered insane. 

Feeling

She had this weird feeling in her stomach as if something was about to happen. It felt like itching inside her stomach accompanied with slight sickness. She couldn't sit still she had to move around. She had no idea if that something that was about to happen was something good or something bad. She just knew it was coming. Sometimes when she had this feeling nothing happened in her life but she was convinced that something happened some where else and it will influence her life later. The problem was she never found out what it was as she also never wrote down the time and Date to check it later. For her it was enough to know. She didn't need evidence. 

Death

"Yes, she has passed away... Thank you... Funeral will be on Monday ar noon.. Thank you, I will let you know if i need anything."  she kept repeating the same phrases over and over again. She had been in the hospital, talked to the doctor, got the document but still some part of her didn't believe. Some part of her kept thinking that she lies every time when she announced the death of her mother. 

Loss

The first time after loosing someilone dear is like a walk in a swamp. You fidget and try to understand what should be done. Then you do things in order to keep your sanity but you mind is walking in the swamp. Some steps are on steady ground an you are sad but calm and composed. And then there is this one step and there is no ground under your feet and you are waist-deep in the murky desperation. You pull yourself out some how only to fall again some un steady steps later. The only thing that keeps you sane  is your own effort to pull yourself out over and over again. It will take a lot of time to reach the edge of the swamp, but the falling will become less frequent.

Trees

It was an unusual place. He had never seen a place like that. As far as he could see from the edge of the forest there were floating islands. Each of the islands had a huge tree in the middle. Suddenly, he felt the earth shaking under his feet and he clunched the branch of a nearby tree to stay upright. He looked around and notice the cause of the rumble. A tree broken of of the edge of the forest and floated away. Like a ship sailing in the sea. He notice that those trees which were older floated lower. Arian later explained that when a tree dies it falls down in the fog. When he asked what is there in the fog, Arian looked at him quizically and them laughed saying that it is the land of dead, People don't return from that place to tell about it. 

Master

All kind of weird creatures stood on his bedside table. They were partly human and partly mythical. You wouldn't find them in books or movies though. All of them lived in Jame's mind. He carved them out of drift wood he found during his lenghty seaside walks. Once he carved a monster it never apeared in his dreams and never disturbed him also during daytime. It was like he took them out Of his mind and turned into a wooden thing. 

Joggler

She thought about all the different pieces of her life and they didn't fit together. She had this crush on a nieghbour but she couldn't bring him in her life. She had family member who needed extra care and a full time job that often involved her in business trips. It seemed that she could have just one thing. And yet there she was joggling all of them, trying desperately to keep those separate dreams alive. Some where in this mess she had forgotten about herself and her body had recently started to show the first signs of crumbling apart. She was running out of time. Fast. 

Enemies

There they stood opposite each other, eyes glaring with cold revenge. They had been enemies for more than hundred years and even for pickticks it was a long time. Nobody really remembered how it started but for pickticks it was a normal thing. They were too small for complex emotions. Usually they had one emotions for each thing or person. You should see how they love each other. It is pure love not like humans'. 

So, there they stood and waited for opponent to pick out the toothpick first. You see for pickticks there is nothing worse than attack someone without the purpose to defend themselves. However, once they get into this vulnerable position of selfdefence, may all Gods be in your favour. You won't get out alive, most likely. 

Summer or Autumn?

The cranes are screaming their heads of and ducks are making their noisy way through the sky. Mornings are chilly and misty. It's definately Autumn. But then the day comes and the sun shines bright and it is too warm for your jacked. Rainshower are not so warm though and they come more often. So it is summer still but with an icy touch of Autumn. Maybe it is time to go to woods and start picking mushrooms. Nah... Blankets are too comfy and there are some real good books waiting to be read. Maybe next year. 

Writer

She felt depressed again and she knew it meant just one thing - she will have to kill someone again. It was odd how writing a story about a suicide or murder always helped her to get out of that black and sticky mood. She couldn't write anything fluffy or cheerful; not even when she felt that way. However, the gloom, the horror and desperation she could paunt with words in all the glory of endless shades of blakness. Those feelings she knew better than any other, because those were the first ones she encountered. They were engraved in her spinal cord. It didn't matter if she was happily enjoying time with her friends or breathlessly amazed by some beautiful piece of art, there was always this bottomless cliff from which to fall over and over again. 

Thoughts on lost & found

Sometimes people admit that don't know what they are looking for but actually they know. And sometimes people think that they know what they are looking for but when they get it - it appears that they don't need it. Why this whole business of lost and found is such a messy and complicated thing? Why can't we clearly know what we need and then just work hard to get it? I'm not even asking for it to be easy to get but you could at least lift the most and let us see.